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I am a Strong Mom

I am happy to announce that I am a Similac StrongMom Ambassador. I’m excited to represent the StrongMom app because it was exactly what we needed when we struggled with Allie’s growth during those early days. She didn’t gain weight at all for her first three weeks. It was a scary, exhausting, awful time – but I didn’t have to worry about writing down feedings or carrying around a notebook. I had Similac’s Strong Mom app. The app allowed me to enter my breastfeeding sessions, my bottle-feeding sessions, Allie’s wet and dirty diapers, and even the time she spent sleeping. … Read more

When Breast Isn’t Best

I wanted – desperately – to breastfeed both of my children. Grace never latched on to my breast. Though I tried just after she was born, she refused. She would occassionally open her mouth for my breast, but wouldn’t suck. I’ve talked about Grace’s refusal to latch before. She never successfully breastfed. I didn’t know what else to do, so when the pediatrician and lactation consultant told me to give her formula, I did. Though I deeply regretted my failure to breastfeed Grace, I came to appreciate the formula. Formula made my baby gain weight. She quickly became healthy and … Read more

I Want to Remember

I haven’t written much in the last two weeks. When Grace was born, I wrote every day. I wanted to remember every moment, every little sigh and every baby grunt. I haven’t written anything this time because I don’t want to remember. I don’t want to remember the sadness, the tears, the hardships. I don’t want to remember how crying became normal, nor how I detached from my children. I don’t want to remember the struggles, the frustration, the mourning for my former family, for easier times, for deep sleep. I don’t want to remember the temper tantrums, the anger, … Read more