How do you feel about yourself?
I feel okay about myself. I have strengths and weaknesses, but overall, I am what I am.
How do you feel about your body?
Not so okay. I would like to change my body, but I've never stuck with any plan long enough to lose the 180 pounds that I would like to lose. Something has always gotten in my way (an injury, a pregnancy, depression). I get in my own way plenty, too.
I'm not willing to have surgery to lose weight.
But still, I would like to change my weight. I would like to change it very much.
If you could change something about yourself, what would it be?
My weight. Without a doubt, the one thing I'd most like to change about myself is my weight.
The above was part of an exercise that I completed in group therapy last week. In looking back over it, I have two thoughts. First, I need to stop beating myself up and just accept my weight for what it is, and second, I need to do something to change it.
I am morbidly obese. I don't like that fact. I don't like that term, first on my radar around age 8. I want to change it.
As much as I want to change my weight, I don't feel like I can climb that mountain right now – during intensive mental health treatment – but I am going to get started when this part of my treatment is finished.
Thanks to God's perfect timing, Jessica, author of Found the Marbles, started a crusade in July called Be Kinder to Your Body. She asked blog readers to commit to 11 of the following 15 items:
- Drink More Water
- Take Vitamins
- Shop Organic
- Get Enough Sleep
- Cut Out the Soda – In the interest of full disclosure, I still drink one Mountain Dew every morning. The neurologist who treats my narcolepsy suggested it to get me moving in the morning. Following a doctor's instructions doesn't count against me, right? But I will limit myself to that one can per day.
- Eat Fruits and Vegetables (especially those green vegetables)
- Get Regular Exercise
- Stop Eating Empty Calories
- Cut Out the Caffeine
- Give Up Artificial Sweeteners
- Give Up Fried Food and Unhealthy Fast-Food
- Give Up High Fructose Corn Syrup
- Give Up Alcohol
- Eat Correct Portion Sizes
- Eat Whole Grains
- Learn to Manage Bipolar Disorder – Obviously, this was not part of the original list, but it's part of my list.
The items in bold above are the ones I chose to commit to doing, and the italicized items are things I'm already doing.
The challenge began on July 8, and I have been following it as best as I could. I'm going to start focusing on one item at a time so that I can devote myself more fully to them.
For the next week, I am going to get enough sleep every night. I really need 8-9 hours of sleep each night, but I'm going to schedule 8 hours and make sure I get it.
It's going to be a challenge, but I'm going to do it.
What are you doing to be kinder to your body?
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